The Best I Never Had.

Summer of 2012. The part where it all started.

 I've been gone for so long now,
 Chasing everything that's new,
I have forgotten how I got here,
I have never forgotten you,
We're just children with our eyes opening,
You were all that I could see,
You came close enough to know my heart beat but
Still not close enough for me.

 Through the good times and the bad,
You were the best I never had,
The only chance I wish I had to take,
There was no writing on the wall,
No warning signs to follow,
I know now and I just can't forget,
You're the best I never had.

 In this motel,
Will pass midnight,
When i'm bluer than a bruise,
And you come drifting through the half light,
In your funny black shoes,
And I hope that's you standing at my doorway,
That's the scratching of your key,
And I hope this thing i'm writing,
Someday finds you,
My letter to leave.

 Through the good times and the bad,
You were the best I never had,
The only chance I wish I had to take,
The was no writing on the wall,
No warning signs to follow,
I know now and I just can't forget,
You're the best thing I never had,
 The best I never had.

If I Have A Bot.

An opening to the a new life i'm going to have to live.

With or Without You.

Heard this song in Friends, got stuck in my head for a lil while. Tried playing it, and now its in my favorites on Spotify.

Here's the cover. Only cause of Kina Grannis.

That Is Me.

I am secure,

When you're not sure,

Maybe I could be the cure.

I am noisy,

Not that classy,

And not too sissy.

I am not always right,

Wanted someone bright,

To walk me through the light.

I am insanely hard,

Someone soft would be a good start,

Teach me to appreciate your art.

I am a daydreamer,

Not a good singer,

But a good apologizer. 

A Pictured Script

This is a story before the story.

So I was walking by, and I saw her and I literally stopped. Just stopped.

Looking through the window I told myself...
Oh my God !! That is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my entire life but I've never done anything like this. I've never gone and talked to a total stranger before but she was right there. Right there.

And so I thought to myself...20 seconds. Go !!

Now i'm in the restaurant and I'm terrified. Thinking about leaving, I can actually touch her cause she's right there. She's still hasn't seen me and I still have 15 seconds left. I'm going for it..bravery.

Here's what I said :

Me : Excuse me.

And she looked at me. She smiles.

Me : Why would an amazing woman like you even talk to someone like me.

And there she stares and smiles..

And she said : Why not ?


And that was the moment.





You only have to be courages for 20 seconds and it will change your entire life.

Do You Remember

Even if i'm walking with none beside,
How could I not think about the smiles you gave.
If only that glance you saw,
Then it would be a whole new story.

Written Cover : I Won't Give Up.

When I look into your eyes,
Its like watching the night sky,
Or a beautiful sunrise,
There's so much they hold,
I see that you've come so far,
To be right where you are,
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us,
Even if the skies get rough,
I'm giving you all my love,
I'm still looking up.

And when you're needing your space,
To do some navigating,
I'll be here patiently waiting,
To see what you find.

Cause even the stars they burn,
Some even fall to the earth,
We've got a lot to learn,
God knows we're worth it,
No: I won't give up.

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily,
I'm here to stay and make the difference I can make,
Our differences they do a lot to teach how to use the tools and gifts we got,
We got a lot at stake,
And in the end you're still my friend,
At least we didn't intend for us to work,
We didn't break,
We didn't burn,
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in,
I had to learn what I've got and what i'm not,
And who I am.

I won't give up on us,
Even if the skies get rough,
I give you all my love,
I'm still looking up.

Jason Mraz

Friends, Lovers or Nothing

Now that we are over as a loving kind,
We'll be dreaming to keep the good alive,
Only when we want is not a compromise,
I'd be pouring tears into your drying eyes.

Friends, lovers or nothing,
There can only be one,
There'll never be an in-between so give it up.

Your whisper "come-on over" cause you're two drinks in,
But in the morning I will say goodbye again,
Think we'll never fall into the jealous game?
The streets all flood with blood of those who felt the same.

Anything other than "yes" is "no",
Anything other than "stay" is "go"
Anything less than "i love you" is "lying"


A short clip from JM.

The Clinging Sound

Heal my pain with your cold breath,
Even if she angers me to death,
Give me back my smiles with the clinging sound,
Now my feet won't touch the ground.


Oh love, don't let me go,
Won't you take me where the street lights glow?
I can hear the rain coming like a serenade of sound,
Now my feet won't touch the ground.

Unfaithful.

Listen to me,
Who do you think you are?
What did you do behind my back
Only you know this,
Stop giving me excuses
Be at least a little scared of God,
Learn how to truly love someone,
All of our moments together were a lie.

Unfaithful, that’s what you turned out to be
Fake love, is what you gave to me

Whenever you’re with me,
You get lost in your memories
You sadden me by saying his name,
And your happiness comes from him
I don’t need to say anything now,
You’ve already broken my heart so don’t break it more,
Whether I need you or not,
Give back the significance of out love.

Unfaithful, that’s what you turned out to be
Fake love, is what you gave to me

Why did you come into my life?
Why didn’t you stand by me?
You betrayed me,
Give me an answer,
Tell me what my mistake was,
That you’ve given me this punishment,
You’re going to remember me and cry,


Imran Khan

Unpublished

I have different light,
Putting up all the heights,
I look for none other,
For that to be together.

To many pills i took,
All those recipes i've cooked,
Them bitches were the same,
Shitting out nothing but fame,

I love the high pitch sound,
That people won't stay around,
I need something unalike,
Liking more than just like.