If Its You.

If its you...

I'll cry,
I'll fly,
I'll get high,
I'll die,
With you.

If its you,

I ride,
I slide,
I show pride,
I choose side,
With you.

If its you,

I'll hold,
I'll find gold,
I'll stay cold,
I'll be bold,
With you.

If its you,

I'll fight,
I'll be right,
I'll climb height,
I'll let go the tight,
With you.

Only if its you..

Photo by Recep Gulec

Speak.

Its been long enough,
Waiting is the only thing I thought,
The roads I walked were always rough,
Fell too many times without getting caught.

Thinking again and again,
It seems hard to even gain,
It was always everything,
Now you're my nothing.

I heard too many musics with happiness,
As we speak, i'm in emptiness,
Never once I played those with pain,
With no sun, it fills with rain.

Promises made never once happened,
Even when I reopened,
All I did was only wonder,
Trust me, it will never be closer.

All these things running through my vein,
Are driving me insane,
Now I need a new light,
To make all things right.

Eid Al- Adha

When we really look beyond the two Eids we celebrate every year. People are more into Eid Fitri rather than Eid Al Adha.

Remember, there is nothing special about Eid Fitri except that Muslims are allowed to eat after the finishing of Ramadhan.

Eid Al Adha, well, it is a day of sacrifice and a day of love. The story of Nabi Ibrahim and his son Nabi Ismail was the reason Al Adha was celebrated. It is way more important than eating rendang and getting duit raya. It is when people gather from all around the world and pray the Him the All Mighty. He who gives lives and take them away. He who forgives and punishes. He who show His creations the right path in life. MasyaAllah !!!

So brothers and sisters, open your eyes and treat Eid Al Adha the best you can.

Mixed : Bullshit

All that bullshits for the bird,
You ain't nothing but a vulture.

Thought it was true love but you know women lie,
Its like I sent my love with a text two times,
Call cause I care, but I ain't get no reply,
Try to see eye to eye but its like we are both blind.

(Deuces by Chris Brown & Tyga feat. Kevin McCall )

She strikes a match as she is covering my heart with gasoline,
And I'm going down much faster than everything I've ever seen.

( Gasoline by Jason Reeves )

She said,
And maybe someday we'll figure all this out,
Try to put an end to all our doubts,
And try to find a way to make things better now that,
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud,
We'll better off somehow, someday.

( Someday by Rob Thomas )
But what are you doing? What are you thinking? It will never work.

I told you ,

I'll give you all i'm worth,
From my head down to my shoes,
And girl if we gonna work,
Then I need the same from you,
I know that so many other dudes cheat,
But so many dudes ain't me.
( One Love by Trey Songz )

Does he really know you, all the little things?
Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete?
If he makes me fight for you, or die for you, would he do the same?
This is turning into more than a game.

Getting kinda sick of this battle,
Wish I could take it back to when I had you,
I'm always thinking that I can have you, just let him have you,
Its getting kinda hard to convince you,
After all the shit we've through,
Why would you let all this happen?
You gotta choice to make it stop,
Its already going to far.
( War by Jay Sean )

I gave all of my trust, didn't think that being faithful was asking too much,
Glad that I know now that I was fooled,
Fate let me see how they say every tears have its own reasons,
Every smile has its own season,
Never once thought that you would be this trifling. I was blinded.

Now I know that love made me blind,
So I couldn't see all the lies you told were right in front of me,
Since love made me blind, you made a fool of me,
You make it look so perfect when it wasn't meant to be.
( Blind by Jason Derulo )

You cause me to wonder as much as I can,
I feel it all over, its starting to lack,
We're spinning our wheels so much,
That its hard to turn back.
( Snowblind by Rob Thomas )

But..
Don't know what tomorrow brings,
But i'm still hoping you are the one for me,
And what if I had you and what if you had me?
What's the reason we can't fall in love?
( What If by Jason Derulo )

Now..
Its like i'm alone with me,
But I never told you what I should have said,
No, I never told you,
I just held it in,

And now,

I miss everything about you,
Can't believe that I still want you,
And after all the things we've been through,
I miss everything about you.
( I Never Told You by Colbie Cailat )

Cause it's not over till it's over
Every ending's a new beginning
One more chance to get it right
One more chance to get it wrong
Its not over till it's over
Sometime's nowhere leads to somewhere
And it all starts again
In the end
( The End by Jason Reeves )

Baiklah, saya rindu..

Lies.

An undeniable action which each and every one of us made in life. Suppressed feelings and the burning fire we have towards others are those lies we showed them eyes to eyes. Words that we told and things we played with them are those lies we hide behind their visions. Fake smiles and dreams we shared with them are those lies we crashed their lives with. In a situation where a ball threw touched the ground without a catch. A human with two faces in his stories. Mood swings with a happy face now and pale the next minute. Giving hopes with a dead end. A future with emptiness and zero happiness.

We try, we show and we maintain the relationship with liars with a beauty hope of a recovery. The emotions we carried were heavier than those lies they gave us. Telling them that we were dumb but with the truth, we were never blind. All those bullshit given to make us smile, to make us calm, to make us compliment, were the lies created with drowned hard feelings which they never revealed. All night we look around finding our wrongs, never will we find them because of the locked chest beneath our heads. Don't you felt the bullshit around you ? What to do depends on why you want it to be next.

Friendship and love torn in between the stretches with a needle than can't be used for any purpose. A reason to stay with us was only for enjoyment and hatred. We made things better to cover up the holes, to catch up a long breath swimming beneath, but they were hopeless. This is the life that we face whenever our eyes open with the shine from the east. A scratch of misunderstanding was repaired with hard faces without any considerations from either sides. The darkness we have to realize.

Friendship that starts with a lie will never last.
Love that starts with a lie will always hurt.


Photo by Twinphotography

Hold On.

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones?
I guess that we were once, babe we were once,
But luck will leave you cause it is a faithless friend,
And in the end when life has got you down,
You've got someone here you can wrap your arms around.

So hold on to me tight, hold on to me tonight,
We are stronger here together than we could ever be alone,
So hold on to me, don't you ever let me go.

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart,
But its no one's fault, no its not my fault,
And maybe all the plans we made might not work out,
But I have no doubt even though its hard to see,
I've got faith in us, and I believe in you and me.

So hold on to me tight, hold on, I promise it'll be alright,
Cause its you and me together and baby all we got is time,
So hold on to me, hold on to me tonight.

There's so many dreams that we have given up,
Take a look at all we've got,
And with this kind of love, what we got here is enough.

So hold on to me tight, hold on, I promise it'll be alright,
Cause we are stronger here together than we could ever be alone,
Just hold on to me, don't you ever let me go,
Hold on to me, its gonna be alright, hold on to me tonight.

They always say we were the lucky ones.

I will and I am : Los Angeles.

I will get what I always wanted and finish up what I started.

I will walk under the sun when it was winter in everywhere else.

I'll wear shorts to parks and walk next to the beach with my sunglasses during summer.

I'll drive a simple car and enjoy my ride every day when my journey starts.

I'll hangout in parks next to the city every weekend and look at the people running around with their kids and dogs.

I'll shop anytime I want on rows of classy shops with latest fashion designs you can find on earth.

I'll party in bigger clubs and better songs than the one I have right now.

I'll walk on a path with stars on it where people take photos after a step they made.

I'll visit Chinatown and see all the Chinese that live on that side of the city.

I watch my favorite basketball team play in their very own stadium and scream as loud as I can.

I'll buy the star map and see every single star houses I can find.

I'll watch the sunset on the beach and sunrise from my apartment.

This is my list and I write it down so that it happens.