A - confession

TRUTH. A crucial thing that a person must always remember to present wherever he/she goes.

DOUBTS. Every single human being has the doubtful feelings no matter how perfect your life is.

TRUST. Sometimes people think it is hard to maintain trust among them but without realizing it, if one never trust then he/she shall not be trusted.

LIES. It is not wrong for a person to lie but instead, if we have to make it a must then it is mutually understandable.

MISTAKE. We all know we do have mistakes in life. We do it not everyday but every second in our lives.

PAIN. If you don't have pain in life then God is not fair in his creation.

LOVE. We don't and we never know when we are ready for love. It happens in a blink of an eye. It is not something that we can't compare or calculate but its a beautiful feeling which only a heart can explain. Never choose to love but open it up to be loved.

I cannot explain how can I live when the name that makes my heart beats flow away from me. How can I sleep when that name which works as a sleeping pill for me, is being destroyed ?
How can I think when my mind is empty without her?
How can I live if I lost her that give me strength to make my blood flow with no stop.
With what I did, I beg her to give me another chance for me to prove my love for her because with her my love is strong and with her my love is pure.

ya Allah, as a humble servant I beg you, soften her heart so that she forgets everything that is bad and open up the heart for that I am able to shine in her. Show her the view of my true love and give her the strength to accept my love the way it is. Amiin.

She.

She,
Maybe the face I can't forget,
The trace of pleasure or regret,
Maybe my treasure or the price I have to pay.

She,
Maybe the song that summer sings,
Maybe the chill that autumn brings,
Maybe a hundred different things,
Within a measure of a day.

She,
Maybe the beauty or the beast,
Maybe the femine or the feast,
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell.

She,
Maybe the mirror of my dreams,
The smile reflected in a stream,
She may not be what she may seem,
Inside her shell.

She,
Who always seen so happy in a crowd,
Whos eyes can be so private and so proud,
No one's allowed to see them when they cry.

She, maybe the love that cannot hope to last,
May come to me from shadows from the past,
That I'll remember till the day I die,

She,
Maybe the reason I survive,
The why and wherefore I'm alive,
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years.

Me,
I'll take her laughter and her tears,
And turn them all my souvenirs,
For where she goes I've got to be,
The meaning of my life is,
She.

Is it Am I ? or is it I Am ?

Looking out the window,
The clear sky gives its attention,
The sun smiles wide,
The winds stop and stare,
For a second there,
Am I in love?

Walking down the street,
The roses bloom near my feet,
The trees bend down giving me shades,
So i'll stay and never fade,
Am I in love?

Reading a book with a thousand pages,
The words speak of different ages,
The cover is soft like a new born skin,
Touching it, my mind spinds,
Am I in love?

Looking at you my heart beats,
Feeling hot like Miami Heat,
You like tennis, what a great serve,
That's it, i'm in love!!

I Hope..

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

Events happen every day but mine wasn't so good. Maybe its a test executed by Him the Compassionate and if it is, then my faith will always be there to accept the test as a way to feel His love.

He who created the heart of a man knows what's right and what's wrong in every umat he has created and as one of his humble servant, there is no right for me to question his power but to "redha" the deed. Allah will never leave His servants alone finding their paths but instead giving them ways to walk the true road towards success.

" ya Allah, aku bermohon kepadaMu, tenangkanlah hati hamba Mu yang hina ini dan berilah aku petunjuk ke jalan yang benar. Sesungguhnya, Engkau lah yang Maha Mengetahui." Amiin.

Re-open

God speaks to each of us before we are,
Before he formed us then, in cloudly speech,
But only then, he speaks these words to each,
And silently walks with us in the dark;

Driven by your senses, dare,
To the edge of longing. Grow.
Like a fire shadowcasting glare
Behind assemble things so you can spread
Their shapes on me as clothes
Don't leave me bare.

Let it all happen to you, beauty and dread
Simply go, no feeling is too much
And only this way we can stay in touch.

Near here is the land.
That they call Life
You'll know when you arrive
But how real it is.

Give me your hand.


Rainer Maria Rilke