Money.

Nowadays, people are so accommodated with cash. In their minds, they would probably think that cash would be the answer to every single thing on earth. You want to buy a plane ticket, you need cash. You feel like buying a car, you need cash. You want a pretty wedding, you need cash. Basically, its cash cash cash cash and cash always.

So is it true that cash is the answer to everything? Just take an example of a wedding. You want a beautiful wedding, since you are getting married and nothing can stop you from feeling that single moment of yours. But then you need $60000. Now that is a lot of cash!! Would you use your cash for that amount or would you try a cheaper wedding style? Some might just change the plan into something else and pay for another wedding plan but will that action of yours makes you happy? No. I bet it won't

If you treat money like you treat love, then you will never feel comfortable with your life. If its me, I would rather spend that $60000 because if that spending would create the best wedding for me and happiness on every person's face, then what is there to lose.

But obviously right now, wedding is not my main option.

-THIS IS !! -

So all of you out there who is so scared of losing money, its better for you to lose money rather than your loved ones. So, calm the f** down !!

Listen Instead of Writings.

Songs explained meanings more than writings sometimes. So I guess my writings would never necessary for this one. You figure it out.

Let Me Keep It Short.

I ease in pain,

When I see you, I vomit,

Die away from me,

Sayonara !!

( Great lines from the 70s show )

Mars Vs. Venus

There is no meaning actually on why people put the word versus in the middle of Mars and Venus. What is the point of differentiating a female from a male. Yes, its right to say that physical appearances differ from each other, but its that how we look at differences in our lives? We say men have better ability to think, to perform. Are we sure with the statement we made ?

Everywhere we go, discriminations after another can be seen towards females. Not saying that males are no better than them, we are, but if we look at females way of thinking and what they can do in abstract things, it would probably be the same plus, some of them even have better expectations to shine.

When a father gave up in taking care of his child and ran off, a woman stayed a pampered the infant and use whatever she has to make the child grow well. Who's better? The clothing we wear, fashion shows, designs in and out, who do you think have more creativity in creating them? Now who's better? Just look at all those therapists around the world. If to be compared, I can say that women are holding more of it than men.

I understand that men do have their potentials as well. Not just saying, we have better things in life that we can achieve but putting females out of the league is just going to make us none other than cowards. I believe that, if we show a little more respect to women, than the world would be a better place to live. Me myself, sometimes I don't think that I'm tough enough to compete especially when it comes to feelings. Its in our nature believing that reaching an agreement and taking control is always within a man's circle but what is the point of having an agreement without having people liking it and controlling something with no respect from the others?

Just look at the phase when a woman becomes a leader. BONDING is important. You can see that all she does is try to bond with the members of her community. We all know that women usually have this " all must be perfect " disease which people think it is a bad case in life. Are you sure? Don't you think this disease should be gotten by each and every human being out there in this world? Women tend to do things slow but somehow, it turns out nice and well done. That's not the end of it, they even have the chance to create a bigger sense of connection between them and their colleagues.

See !! There are much more things to learn in this life. Men should learn from women and women should do the same thing. All I've given are the things that women can do. For men, well you guys know better.

Hidden and Meaningless : A Secret.

Stayed up late at night,

With the phone on my hand,

Listening to the voices,

"Tell no one" the voice said,

That is a secret.

Walking with a friend,

Smiles and laughters share through the steps,

Talking about a subject with only our knowledge,

That is a secret.

Writing a song on a piece of paper,

Together played the guitar for a better sound,

Lyrics with hidden meanings of the writer himself,

That is a secret.

Saw a girl with beautiful eyes,

Fall in love with the owner,

Glances shown to her as a sign,

It ends where it begins,

No, that is not a secret, that is the truth.

In the End ?

A guy with a losing heart walked in a field full with enjoyment and smiles. He walked back and forth looking for his never ending friends. Smiling, laughing, telling stories that have no values just to make the part fun. For a while, he felt tired and sat on the green whispering grass under the sun with no blowing wind. He saw so many kinds of sunglasses trying to block the light of nature but none can't resist the heat.

Looking around with anxiety, its like living in a dream when he saw something unexpected walking through his view. Following it, he saw a girl walking with her big little camera on her hand. At first he said to himself " Naah, better I look around than looking at her". But one thing he can't understand was that his eyes kept on following every step she took. Its like, the lightning just shot him with a massive electric attack. " Damn it !! What is happening to meeee!! ". Before he even stood up and say Hello!, the event started and people were running towards the popular guest of the day. For him still, he didn't care about the guest, not even a bit. His eyes kept on rolling all over the crowd looking for her, but nope, she's not there.

He tried resisting it but at the same time hoping to see her again. A day passed by, but maybe because of the light, he got his chance. The girl popped out from a crowed with her pink shirt. " Aaah! Now I like that shirt", he said. The game was still in progress and finals was approaching. People cheering here and there but he was cheering for her. Without saying a thing, all he did was nothing except looking at her pure smiles. Now he wonder, if she has beauty externally, can I expect the same internally.

And again he failed. With no hope, he came back home. Back to his daily writings, songs, fb-ing and books. This might be a little bit weird but maybe God gave him another chance to shine. His heart got a spark one day to read things which weren't his. " Yes ! There she is.". Joy and happiness can be seen from his face that night and the days after. Jumping for a better part, he and she, finally said the word Hye! . Even though it was a word but for him, it means a lot. Interestingly, he felt that she has something in her that cannot be resolved. Trying to know what it was, he fell in love. What? Without a meet? Now that's impossible. " No its not", he said. Why would it be impossible if we ourselves can't even meet love but we felt it?

Talking, conversations and a little bit of gossiping happened in between until one day she said, " I'm going back to Malaysia in July". Bam!!! that thing hit him so hard, he can't breathe. He then told himself, " It should be fine, I still have weeks to go", but what happened when the weeks ended ? On Saturday, the wings took her away from him. Yes its not that long but tell me, if a guy loves a girl, how can he resist his feelings when the girl is not there? No phone calls, no texts, nothing. Just a plane same day for him like 2 months ago. Everyday his heart beats with unbearable speed telling him, something is wrong, something is going on and that he needs to do something. What can he do? Three words. Wait. Loyal. Trust.

He is still here waiting with his heart only for her and for her only. Waiting for the return of his light to him, but will she? Is that light going to be his or it belongs to another being out there?

Only the day will tell.

The Strings.

Each of it has its own tone. Once you taste the sound, you feel the words. It makes you high without pills. It makes you feel the pain without torture. The more you string it, the more you feel it. It writes songs without lyrics being said. I swear to God it makes you ride the best joy of your life. The power within give you the strength to stay alive.

People think they are something that can only be used for entertainment but trust me, the taste of the strings can make us wonder why? make us wonder when? make us wonder how? Imagine a broken heart with no cure and think of the moment where you have nothing else to rely on for a smile. Well, trust in the strings and all you ever do then is say goodbye. It makes you pull the state of belief back to yourself, making it as a path to find a better one.

It tells us that there is no perfection with only one. The faith it has when a love song is played, make one can't stop loving. Love is not about finding the other half of you but finding the happiness within you. With the strings, you feel free, you feel stone. Its like getting the lights off and calling the girl you loved before in New York City. The sounds make you remember the first time you put flowers on a woman's desk with a saying, " Have a nice day !".

Nothing to do, no where to be, take it out and let them talk. Feeling lonely, let them change it for you. Miss someone, they'll make you dream.

Always remember, you' re still alive unless you say you're not.

War.

I would march across the desert to defeat my enemy

And I would lie here in the trenches with your picture next to me

And when I told you it's forever, then it's how its gonna be
Don't, won't let him just take the place of me

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?
Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete?
If he makes me fight for you, die for you, would he do the same?
This is turning into way more than a game..

Now it feels like soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down
And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground
Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go
And I know just how this battle goes
He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war

You know he's not the man you think he is; he's hiding all his flaws
So tell me what's the point of fighting? Because we'll all end up with scars
But if that's what I must go through, then I'm not prepared to lose
Cause I've already bled so much for you

Getting kind of sick of this battle
Wish I could take it back to when I had you
I'm always thinking that I can have you, just let him have you
It's getting kinda hard to convince you

After all the shit that we've been through
Why would you let all this happen?
You gotta choice to make it stop
It's already going too far..

Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go
And I know just how this battle goes
He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war..

-jay sean -